When are you going to have babies?

There is a question that people ask as soon as a tangible comittment is made in a relationship. For us, it began when we got married. When are you going to have babies? Now, to begin with, I didn't mind the question. I'd laugh it off and say we weren't ready. And as much as my heart ached for a child, we really weren't ready. But as time went on, we became ready. We had made it to a place where we could reasonably have a child. We were looking for a house, we had stable incomes, we were emotionally there. That was 6 months ago. Now, my heart flips every time I see a pregnant woman or new baby. I cry everytime the Red Monster arrives. I mentally cringe everytime someone asks the question. I still laugh it off, but it breaks my heart a little more everytime. You can't exactly say to someone "oh yeah, we're trying, but obviously something's not working, what do you suggest?". It's not exactly great conversation. And who wants to share that with your boss/Bible study leader/distant aquaintance anyway? We've shared with a few close family members, but even they don't know the stuggle we're going through. I never thought it would be me. So, random Internet reader, when are you going to have babies?

A New Challenge

It seems that every time I want to start a blog, something gets in the way. A new challenge in life begins, and I 'run out of time'. Luckily, this time the challenge is the blog. The challenge is commitment. So, you are the judge. Can I make it?